This morning I went for a walk/run......now let me back up....over the summer I was up EVERY morning, rain or shine and running....
this was my summer
and then school started/happened and all that came to a screeching halt!!! (do you hear the tires???? I mean screeching:( )
So this morning on my walk/run I was doing some soul searching....warning ya now this post is not a teacher lesson plan, although I feel it ties to teaching, at least for me, and it is gonna be kind of a heart dump (sharing my heart if you will)
so as I was walking and trying to get my run back on I was thinking, trying to figure out why it had been soooooo long since I hit the pavement. That "thinking/reflecting" led to "where has my drive gone?" My drive for exercise, reading, teaching, doing....just life. I feel like I have lost some of that since the school year started. But, WHY? Now let me say I have a great group of kids....love them. So can't blame them. Love my school too! Can't blame that. Not gonna lie, trying to roll out common core and still teaching state standards because that is what will be on the test has played into that....which has led to stress.....which has led to some of my fire "put out". I think I just "forgot" about me:(
I'm one of those all or none personalities.....not good.....I need to find balance (which might have to be my one little word for 2014). I pour most (90% plus) into my "job". This morning as I was walk/running I realized that that is part of my problem. Now, don't get me wrong.....I am all about being passionate about your job and pouring your heart into it but that has been my focus and nothing else....(I'm sure you can tell that by my blog posts....I have been horrible about blogging lately:( ) Where did I (ME) fit into this equation. My focus has been survival and that's about it. NOT GOOD.
In August I started a diet/new way of eating with veggie and proteins.....
made great progress
after losing 30 pounds I have managed to pack back on 6-9 depending on the day:( Why? I forgot about me again....
When I say forgot about me I mean take/MAKE the time for me. Not just school stuff me but ME, ME. You may think that sounds selfish and I'm sorry if you do. I just know that I have a "list", the Lord and my family first of course but then all these other things are on the list before me. THAT'S my problem. I need to push me up on that list! I HAVE to push me up on that list. If I do that, I know my passion, my drive, my joy will be around more than it's gone. Does that make sense? I'm sure I'm not alone with these feelings.....am I?
So my walk/run brought me to this. Yes, it's that time of year where we all sit and reflect and make our New Year's resolutions....lose 20 pounds, exercise more, read more, join the gym, blog more, make more products, walk, find a hobby, drink more water.....you get the idea. I have that list as well....at least mentally. But this morning I decided to pick ONE small, doable step/goal for ME. ONE that won't go out the window in a month. That of course led to a linky (I mean I am a blogger/teacher...lol. That's what we do, right?) We share and we link:) So that is what I'm doing.
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So my 1 for Me is this: Push ME up on my list this year:) That's it. If I do that, I know the stress will go down and the fun will go up:) Everything will fall into place:)
I would love to hear your "1 for Me" for you;) Grab the button and link up if you feel like sharing. It can be anything....doesn't have to be a heart dump like I did...lol. I just needed to get that out:) I would love to hear ONE for you:)
I'm glad my walk/run brought me where it did this morning and I am looking at 2014 with new eyes and excited:) I hope and pray you all have a blessed and safe end to 2013 and a wonderful beginning to 2014!! Thanks for popping by and link up if you get a sec:)
Happy New Year!!!